Friday, December 9, 2016

What About Healings and Wellness... ?


Healing and Wellness

My Road Towards Freedom



~ "There is no Shame in having an illness - but it is a shame not to do something about it" ~

~ "Es ist keine Schande krank zu sein - aber es ist eine Schande nichts dagegen zu tun" ~ (German)






These were the words written in a painting that stood proud on the side of the entrance door of a healing center in Germany. A beautiful center located right in the middle of the woods that backdrapped  the swiss alps, an hour south of Munich in a small town called Groenenbach,  where I visited when I was pretty young.  As a friend says, some moons ago.


I walked in there tipsy, as one would say in the lieux of a new, perhaps sober beginning - they almost did not receive me - but God opened the door through them. They allowed me to stay since I had come from afar.


In this center there were all kinds of people recovering from different emotional ailments. There were people there who had food disorders,  alcoholics, some had  been with Hitler, one ex prisoner, priests with beliefs that have made them lonely, women married to alcoholics, anorexia, bulimic, and other people in a healing process - All good people with different addictions - clean cut - sobering up to find a better happier life.


As I was there, you could truly feel the love. There were lots of great therapies, yoga, rebirthing, dynamic meditation, bonding, color therapy, art therapy, Gestalt therapy, Transactional analisis and many other forms of therapy. It was an awesome place full of awesome and very loving and spiritual people. A lot of cuddling and hugging - no sex - it was about learning to feel and express love in a 'healthy' way. A way to rebuild our hearts and souls as we tried to regain our lives back.


The place was build like a college. Very simple elegant, clean and beautiful. It had very nice dormitories. All therapists considered themselves part of the group, growing and healing in their own process, so noone wore uniforms or doctors 'suits' of any kind.


I remember one of the things I was taught was to do things totally different than I was used to. For example, I used to swim 4-5 hours a day for years and they recommended to take simple walks in the woods for a change. Or I hated knitting, but I took it up, just to get the mind changing and the motivation in the heart that there are so many 'new' things to do and experience in life. I made a long very 'tight' scarf.


Then about 6 weeks into the therapy I felt a pressure in my head very strongly and a voice that said: "you can't - you shouldn't." I went to a nearby church, which I would never normally walk into and felt a Presence there. In that Presence I got on my knees and cried hoping the voice would go away. But as I walked out in the street surrounded by trees back to the healing center the voice only grew stronger. It said :" You can't you shouldn't". The voice grew stronger every day and I felt smaller and smaller all the time. I went to the church the following week again. I stood at the door, there was a Presence. I walked in, kneeled an prayed. The voice remained as I walked out and went back to the Klinik. 


On that night it was "Märchen Stunde" - story telling time. I laid my head on a friends shoulder and felt the love and warmth of the room and listened to the story as my head started spinning and spinning and the voice grew stronger and stronger. I did not know what to do, so I got up and walked towards my room and went into the bathroom to stare at the mirror, as that happened the voice grew louder: " You can't -  you should'nt" - my voice, became tinier and tinier - finally I decided to lie on my bed, where I could hardly breathe and as my voice became even smaller, I could not fight it anymore so I said: "I give up..."

In that moment a shower of a beautiful light and peace took over me. The voice... was GONE. I stood and looked out the window... and felt as if though my past life - in pain and suffering was only a trip on a train that had passed a way. This was a new life now... a new beginning...


The next day when I awoke, I was a walking, vibrating ENERGY of LOVE and LIGHT - mostly profound PEACE! My Mind was or at least felt "CLEAN"...


It was so powerful and beautiful. The next day I had to present myself and was chairperson at a meeting of over a 100 people. I remember that all I could feel for each and every one of them was inmense, beautiful, bountiful, unconditional love.


I looked around and view all the people standing in front of me, there stood the ex-prisoner (who buy the way was a dear) and all the rest of the people and this energy of Love had love for everyone, without judgement. Just. Love. 

God had so much love for one of them. He was like a SUN showering over every single person. There I learned and became aware that  God  is inside me. He is in my heart and in my soul. In the same way that God - the Universe - Spirit - the Lord - the Law - Whomever & whatever you believe in, that is greater and more powerful and that loves you - is in YOUR HEART and SOUL. We are all One.

I learned so much in this awesome place about love, humanism and caring in ways I had never seen before. Had they not had the strategies that they did and the procedures that they had, I probably would not have had that experience. I was truly amazed at how germans had come up with such an incredible place with so many positive results... many people got their lives back together and were geared into a good positive direction...


In deep gratitud and in memory of everyone in that healing center, who gave such bountiful amounts of unconditional love.


Addiction is considered a dis-ease, an illness ~ If anyone is dealing with an addiction of any kind, whether it be with alcohol, drugs, sex, cutting himself, gambling, eating, excessive work, pulling and eating his/her hair, un healthy relationships, etc. - any way, shape, size or form - wouldn't it be great to make the decision to get out of there? reach out for help? There is a lot of love and support available to do so... so please Reach out!!!





There is a way back to a happy life



~ There is no shame in having an illness, but it is a shame not to do something about it ~

~ “From caring comes courage” ~ Lao Tzu

~ "In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity." ~ Albert Einstein

~ “Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.” -Carl Jung

~ "Sometimes to 'lose' is the best way to 'win'" ~ BB


P.S. By the way... I still hate knitting... but I love to paint.